Grey’s Anatomy – S17E11 – Sorry Doesn’t Always Make It Right [Transcript]

A newlywed couple is injured in a car accident; Jackson's generosity with COVID-positive patients goes a bit too far; Hayes works to rebuild Maggie's confidence and convince her to perform an extremely risky heart surgery.
Grey's Anatomy - S17E11 - Sorry Doesn't Always Make It Right

Air date: April 8, 2021

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Meredith: During our ER rotation in med school, my roommate fell in love with emergency medicine.

[Sigh echoes]

Owen: [Echoing] Avery.

Care to tell me why you’ve pulled all of my residents from the ER?

Yeah, I just wanted to speed up our free COVID testing.

But, I mean, hey, if you want, I guess we could…

We could start turning them away. [Scoffs]

It’s a great program.

Forget I asked, okay?

She loved being on the frontline.

She felt that’s where she had the most impact.

But I knew, three days in, emergency medicine was not for me.

Most treatments were meant to just tide patients over until they could see their own physician, a specialist, or a surgeon.

Teddy: And how is her base deficit?

Same as I told you five minutes ago.

And her inflammatory markers?

Altman, we would not be here without your tireless effort.

But you still have two days off.

Enjoy them,

because you’re gonna miss them when you’re back.

Okay. Thanks. Uh, one more thing…

Goodbye, Altman.

[Beeps][Pen clicks]

And I thought, “What’s the point of starting something you won’t get to finish?”

Jo: Closer, I saw it didn’t have a ball in its mouth, it had an avocado.

[Chuckles] No idea where he got it from.

[Sighs] You’re gonna love dogs.

Oh, you’re gonna love everythingabout the outside. Mm-hmm.

The trees, grass, rainbows.

Isn’t that right, Luna?

Wait, wait, wait! Wait, wait.

Say her name again. Why?

Because I think she understood it.

Her face changed.

Yeah, Luna… Luna.

Luuuna… Luna!

For what it’s worth, she doesn’t respond when Isay her name, either.

Yes, she does. She’s a genius.

All right if I complete my rounds now?

Or is she such a genius that she can look after herself?

No. Go ahead. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

Wilson, Chief, while I think these visits do Luna the world of good, I have about 15 other patients and their very worried parents waiting for me, so if you don’t mind…

Nyah nyah nyah nyah nyah. Mm-hmm.

Thank you.


♪ Used to have a lover that was mine, all mine ♪

[Children laughing, speaking indistinctly]

No. Go back where you came from.

I already have all the clothes in the house.

Ellis thought her laundry went under her bed, not in the hamper.

[Scout crying]

He just ate.

Well, I ate a lot when I was a kid.

Still do.

[Sighs] Okay.

Baby or laundry?


I… I just want everything to stop.

The whole planet, it can just stop turning, and we can all just melt.

Is it for us?

Is it for us?

Is it for us?

Is what for us, buddy?

The camping truck, the camping truck!

[Crying continues]

♪ Over you

♪ Darling, over you



[Chuckling] Hey, kiddos!


Surprise! Huh?

Amelia: Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!

COVID! And stranger.

Aw, we’ve talked on the computer screen lots of times.

We’re old friends. Where are your masks?!

Where’s my grandson? That’s what I want to know.

Oh, don’t worry, honey, we have been totally safe.

Two-week quarantine from Colorado while we took in the scenery.

Dad packed for everything. We didn’t even have to shop.

Haven’t spoken face-to-face with another soul since we left.

Mm. So romantic.

[Both laugh]


I guess I’ll… [sighs] go get Scout?

Okay. Alright, I’ll do you one better.

We thought we could take all the kids to check out Mt. Rainier.

Fun! Can we go, please?

Uh, I’m sorry.

You’re say… you want to take everyone from here?

Those first few months with a newborn…

Impossible without help.

Only if it’s okay.


Yes! Yay! Come on!

Have I told you two how much I love you?

Because I definitely love you.

[Laughs] And we love you, too, hon.

We couldn’t have asked for a better daughter-in-law.


She is the mother of my grandson, and even if you haven’t gotten around to proposing,

I am gonna call her what I want to call her.

I don’t get why they’re not married, either.

Okay. Time to hit the road.


I’ll go get Scout.

Maureen: I can’t wait to meet my grandson!

[Exhales deeply]

[Siren wails in distance]

[Indistinct conversations]

That’s it?

I can go again if you want. [Chuckles]

You’ll get a text in 30 minutes with the results.

Thank you. All right.

I’ve almost used all my kits. I’m so sorry.

It’s just that the… the… The turnout’s so high.

Relax, Schmitt. We have more in the van.

If we run low, we can go over to the drive-through site at Station 19.

They’ve got extras.

Oh. [Chuckles] Wow. That’s amazing.

How did we get more kits?

20 hours of virtual meetings with the Fox Foundation, convincing them it’s the right thing to do… that’s how.

You don’t just ask your mom? [Laughs]

Ready for you, sir.

Thank you. Why don’t you go ahead and have a seat?

How you doing? Good.

One of our cashiers tested positive at the store.

I feel fine, but, you know, I figured I should make sure.

Good. Smart. Okay.

Can you take your mask down a little bit for me?

[Breathes sharply]

All right, one more.

Great. All set. Yeah.

How many days till I know?

Uh, well, it’s a rapid test, so about 30 minutes for your results.

Oh, wow. I won’t be late for my shift, then.

Thank you so much.

You’re very welcome. Thank you.

[Siren wailing in distance]

I wouldn’t be the surgeon I am without you, Meredith.

You taught me to push myself, to innovate, to see what’s possible, and to trust my instinct.

And right now, that’s telling me to change to OB.

Go with God?

[Sighs] Meredith wouldn’t say that.

I have literally never known what Dr. Grey is gonna say.

Ooh! Why don’t you be me and I be her?

Oh, how about you be you and her so that I can get back to the testing tent?

She’s my mentor!

I don’t want to disappoint her or Bailey or Dr. Webber.


This is stressful.

[Cellphone chimes]

Well, so is pissing off Dr. Avery.

Oh, crap… trauma.

I gotta go.

I had to go first!

Woman over P.A.: Dr. Goldberg to the ICU. Dr. Goldberg to the ICU.

Arthur Beaton, 14 months…

Hold up, Khan.

Chris, did you want to wait for Hollie?

Or I can set you up with a video-chat on a tablet?

No. Thank you.

It’s… not a good time.

She has work, so go ahead.

Arthur Beaton, 14 months, diagnosed with multiple VSDs, cardiomyopathy, and heart failure.

He’s currently on day 12 of ECMO, waiting for a transplant, status 1A.

We thought this would only be for a few days.

Do a lot of kids with his condition stay on it this long?

It’s unusual.

It means he’s strong.

He’s already held his own through several procedures.

None of which have fixed the holes in his heart.


We’re hoping he can hang on a little bit longer, until a donor heart comes through.

I’ll be back to you in a couple of hours, okay?

[Siren wails]

Chief. Welcome back.


So, uh, this is the car that got stuck in a truck?

Yep, ran right up the loading ramp.

They had to cut open the side of the van.


Newlyweds, I heard.

Hell of a honeymoon.


[Brakes squeal]

Shayne Riley, 45.

Unstable pelvis and lower abdominal pains after sustaining crush injuries in an MVC.

Initially unresponsive, but now alert and orientated after saline boluses.

Shayne, you are in good hands now, and I’m not just saying that because Dr. Bailey here is my wife.

But you are looking really good, Chief.

All right, this is Karissa Skolaski, 42.

Vital signs stable, A and O times three.

Minor lacerations to the face, arms, and legs.

Patient complains of headache.

Let’s take her to trauma one.

Shayne?! W-Where’s my husband?!

He’s right over there, ma’am. He’s being taken care of.

Oh, Shayne, I’m sorry, babe!

I didn’t mean it!

Wait, can he hear me?

Uh, he’s heavily sedated, ma’am.

I can hear her just fine. I’m just not talking to her.

Ever again.

[Groans lightly]

Improving ground glass opacities, no pleural effusion or pneumothorax, and no signs of stroke on head CT.

This is great news.

It’s not great news?

Great news doesn’t matter if she’s too weak to stay awake.

Karissa, you can’t get up. We’re waiting on neuro to see you.

Okay? Just squeeze. I’m fine, I’m fine.

But my boyfriend… husband…

Uh, he… he hates needles.

He really hates needles.

He’s being worked on by excellent doctors.

Can you follow my finger?

But can’t you put us in the same room?

I really need to talk to him.

When we were in the accident, I kinda said a thing, and I feel terrible.

Well, you’re in luck. They pay me to help people who feel terrible.

Any loss of consciousness? Dizziness?

I don’t think so.

So, what? You cheated on him?

You stole all his money? You ran over grandma?

Okay, CT’s calling for her. Do you want to come?

Please and thank you. Squeeze my hands, please.

I told the paramedics to save me first.

Over him, my husband.

Yikes. Well, maybe you can blame that on a brain bleed.

Can you please tell him I’m okay?

Yeah. Let’s go.

Shayne: You know what else she said?

That except for her, no one would miss me if I died.

She thinks I’m a loner and no one cares about me.

A lot of people panic on their wedding day.

I know I did.

Dr. Hunt knows that…

Does this hurt?

Ow! Yeah.

Don’t people normally panic before saying “I do”?

We’d already been married four hours.

I’m not sure, but your scan does show that you have an open-book pelvic fracture.

We’re gonna have to do a CT to make sure there’s no other abdominal injuries, but you will need a surgery, okay?


Shayne, we’re taking Karissa to CT, but she is stable and she’s feeling okay.

Let me guess… She asked to go first.

No, she’s very worried about you.

Good. Don’t tell her how I am.

She doesn’t get to know anything.

Owen: Let’s go.

I’m just gonna not tell her anything?

She’s terrified.

You know the rules.


It’s not just me, right?

This is weird.

Amelia: Super weird.

It’s like we won the lottery of silence.

Where do we even start?

By getting naked?


Loving that.

Whoa, Amelia.

I don’t think you’re grasping the extent of our freedom here.

There are no baby monitors.

There are no homework assignments, no one’s… no one’s hungry.

I’m a little hungry.

Then let’s have sex in the kitchen.

We can do whatever we want.

You realize that?

We can… We can be loud.

Oh, do you remember being able to be loud?

[Crying softly]

What’s wrong?

[Crying, sniffling]


Okay. [Sighs]

All right. Amelia look at me.

Oh, my, God. No, no!

No? Get up, get up!

I-I-I thought you were crying because my mom and Zola…

No, I’m not!

I’m… I’m not, just… I just really need to be crying right now!





[Siren wailing]


Marcel tested positive.

He needs to be home, isolating.

I told him that, but apparently, he lives with his family…

Six people in a two-bedroom apartment, including his grandpa.

He doesn’t want to get them sick.

Can’t we just admit him?

Get him some care and a place…

This is not a hotel, Schmitt.

He can’t afford to stay anywhere else.

Okay. Book him a hotel room.

On you? Are you sure?

It’s a matter of public health, okay?

Anybody needs a room… just book them a hotel.

No questions.

[Breathes sharply]

We got you a hotel.


Woman over P.A.: Dr. Feldman to the Step Down Unit. Dr. Feldman to the Step Down Unit.


[Sighs] I had to get out of there for a minute.

I understand.

You want to get outside, get some fresh air?

Or there’s a chapel.

So I can pray for someone else’s kid to die?

I lied earlier.

Hollie wasn’t on a work call.

She hasn’t signed on to work in weeks.

I don’t know if it’s postpartum depression or Arthur or the world…

Listen, it’s…

It’s been a terrible ordealfor the pair of you.

She’s so depressed, she can’t get out of bed.

When COVID hit, seeing people lose whole families in a week we knew we had to be careful ’cause of Arthur’s heart condition.

And we were.

And in the end, it didn’t matter.

I’m still losing them.

The only thing keeping me going right now is the hope for a miracle.

Arthur gets a heart, Hollie comes back to life, and we a family again.

And I know we can’t have our miracle unless someone else loses theirs.

Lives what I’m living right now.

Gets shattered.


And I pray for it anyway.

‘Cause Arthur… [Sniffling]

He’s your son.

I can’t lose him, Dr. Hayes.

We can’t lose him.




How’s she looking?


Karissa… Did I hear Dr. Wilson?

Is Shayne okay?

Uh… [Clears throat]

Sorry, Karissa. Um, patient confidentiality.

[Chuckling] Confidentiality?

From his wife?


Did he ask you not to tell me?

That is also confidential.

He’s still mad.

My sisters said we were crazy for moving so quickly.

They said three months is not enough time to get to know someone you’re gonna spend the rest of your life with.

Well, neither is six years.


Scans are up.

Karissa, you have a very small contusion on your brain.

It’s benign with a very minor bleed, so minor I don’t think we can blame it for anything.


But we do have to keep you overnight for observation.

I was wrong.

I was wrong that no one would miss him.


Because it’s only been a few hours, and I miss him so much I could burst.



[Indistinct conversations]

[Telephone rings in distance]


Got your page. What’s up?

Can you think of a salvage procedure we can do on a 14-month-old with multiple VSDs?

Another one?

We just did one two weeks ago.

It’s the same boy. Arthur Beaton.

The one we put on ECMO?

He’s hanging on.

What about a double pump EXCOR?

You know, an artificial heart that can take over for the ventricles…

No, I know what it is. Uh…

Arthur’s chest cavity is too small.

The cannulas would push up against his vital organs.

We’d have to leave him open and leave him on a vent.

He’s been on ECMO for 12 days.

I don’t think he has the strength to withstand a transplant, and that’s even if we could find a donor.

So, then, what do you suggest?

I think you should have a very difficult conversation with his parents. It’s time.

Aren’t you supposed to be some sort of genius or something?

Youngest cardio chief in the country?

More innovative and published than any of her peers?

So what? You’re just gonna give up?

We have been at this for months.

We have done everything we can for that boy. [Sighs]

At this point, we’re just prolonging his pain, and his family’s.

It’s not giving up.

It’s letting them go on.


[Tea kettle whistling]

[Dog barking in distance]

[Water pours]

[Tea kettle thumps lightly]

[Breathes deeply, clears throat]

I think it just hit me that it’s been months since I’ve been able to feel whatever I want without worrying that I will permanently scar a child.

I mean, the constant pressure of not ruining a life is exhausting.

Are you mad that I shouted no and made you get up?

[Chuckles] No, I’m not mad at you.

I’m mad at my mom for bringing it up.

Are you… wanting to get married?

After you shouted no and made me get up?

No, not so much.

I meant, “No, you’re misreading the moment,” not, “No, I don’t want to marry you.”

So you do want to marry me?

I wasn’t saying I want to marry you, or…

Or I don’t want to marry you.

I, um… haven’t thought about it.

I haven’t had time. Yeah.

I haven’t had time either, but I’ve still thought about it.

What have you thought?

[Exhales deeply]

I love you, and I love Scout, and I love us together, and you know, marriage is, uh, I guess kinda how society locks it all in…

Eh, but it doesn’t lock it in.

It doesn’t lock it in! Mnh.

And your parents’ divorce was hell.

It was hell!

And I-I swore that I’d never put a kid through that.



I know that your mom has big ideas, and Zola has big wedding-dress dreams, but, um have you really changed your mind?


I was a terrible wife.

You had a brain tumor. I did.

But I’m not sure that the sexy brain tumor can take all the credit.

I still think I’m wired for self-destruction.

Why do you think that?

[Breathes sharply]

Because, every day, for a lot of days now, I go to sleep thinking about getting high, and I wake up thinking about getting high, and sometimes, in the middle of feeding Scout, I zone out, and think about getting high.


And he won’t let me tell his wife anything.

It’s their wedding day, and he’s already over her, which is just… It’s just sad and messy and…

And it’s not that I am sick of adults.

Okay, I’m a little… I’m a little sick of adults.

Adults are always here on the worst day of their lives, and I am so sick of worst days.

And people being terrified of me because I’m cutting them open.

But with moms, they want you here, even though it’s scary sometimes, because you being there means that they’re getting to meet their baby, their dream, and they can’t do it without my help.

And since, uh… [Clears throat]

Since Alex left, um my house hasn’t been my happiest place.


I want work to be.

And I think that you get that.

And I am so grateful to you, because you believed in me before I believed in myself.

And I will tell you all of this again when you’re awake.

[Monitor beeping]

Please, please be awake soon.

Please be well soon.

We can’t take any more worst days around here.


I’ve booked 18 hotel rooms.

The manager wondered if you’d rather book a whole floor.

Well, we got a lot of positives.

Tell him we’ll take all the rooms we can get. Thank you.

I think I’ve memorized your credit-card number.

When did hotel stays become part of the plan?

Well, people need more than a test, and quarantining isn’t easy for everybody.

[Scoffs] And you realized that today?

Excuse me? You know he’s your boss, right?

I’m sorry. And, technically, so am I.

I’m sorry. Schmitt, give us a minute.

Well, don’t fire her. Schmitt!

[Siren wailing in distance]

[Sighs] Come here, please.

I assume that wasn’t your real question.

So would you like to tell me what is going on?

You’re booking up hotel rooms.

So is Seattle Partners.

Okay. I’ve heard of them.

A group of, uh, community organizations, right?

Longstanding community organizations that have been providing housing and wrap-around services for people who test positive for COVID in low-income neighborhoods.

Okay. So, the more the better, so what’s the…

Yeah, maybe in theory, but they can’t book their hotel rooms at their discounted rates because a local doctor is booking them at full price!

And hotels are kicking people out to make room for your new arrivals.

I got it.

I apologize. I didn’t… I didn’t know that.

[Sighs] Great.

We’ll just tell everyone it wasn’t on purpose.

That should keep them real warm tonight.



Oh, I fell asleep?

I think it’s a defense mechanism.

[Sighs] Noticed you do that.

Do what?

Fall asleep when you are emotionally overwhelmed.

Some people cry. Some people talk.

Some people yell.

You… fall asleep.

All right, well, I’m not avoiding my feelings, if that’s what you’re implying.

I just… I-I process them better while I’m unconscious. Mm.

[Breathes sharply]

Okay. Let’s figure this out.

There’s not much to figure out.

I’m an addict.

You’re an addict in recovery.

So, what? You need to hit up a meeting?

I’ve talked about it in meetings.

A lot of us have.

This pandemic feels like Satan has designed the perfect set of circumstances to make sobriety seem impossible.

Isolation, fear, futility, anger, hopelessness.

[Chuckling] I mean, name a trigger, it is stronger.

For the record, I don’t believe in Satan.

I’m just saying it feels like that.

Also, what’s weird is I’m not even craving pills.

I’m just… I just want to, like, drive to a dispensary and buy some weed and smoke it.

Well, is that allowed?

To, um… To smoke weed if that wasn’t the thing that you were addicted to?

Well, there’s no such thing as “allowed” in my program.

There are just suggestions.

And, no, it is not suggested.

Why not? Because if I smoked weed, it is very likely that I would forget to not do heroin.

Well, for the record… I would marry you in a hot minute.


Because most drug addicts who crave drugs just do drugs.

But you don’t.

That makes you stronger than most people.

And cooler. [Sniffles]

And the opposite of self-destructive.


[Clears throat]

All right, Amelia…


Oh, my God. No, no.

Oh, my God! Get up!

Got it.

Like, not ever or not today?

Just… [Chuckling]

Not when I’m confessing my darkest secrets and I have snot rolling down my face.



Is Luna okay?

Yeah, she’s fine.

I just needed to see a friendly face. [Sighs]

I’m about to ask a father about taking his baby off life support.

Oh, my God.

She’s the best.

Doesn’t judge.

Isn’t selfish.

Isn’t bitter or resentful about the cards she’s been dealt.

Oh, I hope she doesn’t.

Become bitter or resentful.

I mean, I wouldn’t blame her if she did.

I spent a lot of my life being angry about the way that I came into the world.

Took me a long time to realize that that anger didn’t serve me.

And the more I let it go, the better off I’d be.

Letting it go was like breaking off the crusty black pieces of my heart.

It hurt at first, but with time, it just…

Oh, wow. Wilson…


Thank you!



[Monitor beeping]

The Cooper ligament is completely destroyed.

Yeah, I think Stoppa technique’s our best bet. Agreed.

Uh, pick-ups?

What a wedding day.

Started with his bride calling him a loser.

[Laughing] Can’t imagine much worse.

Not… that I…

How are the kids?[Suction gurgling]

[Sighs] If you ask me, he’s lucky.

How so?

Well, he found out the truth on day one instead of 20 years from now.

No house, no kids. Lucky.

Mayo scissors, please.

And how is Altman?

She’ll be back in a couple days.

That’s not why I’m asking.

Respectfully, Chief,

the OR has heard enough about my personal life, okay?


Thank you.

Maggie: Hayes, you paged again?

You said there’s not enough space for a total artificial heart.

You paged me 911 after I told you it was impossible?

His chest cavity is too small. I know.

Too small because his heart’s taking up space.

But what if we made space?

Sure, let’s just take out his heart.

Don’t be ridiculous.

We’ll leave some of it behind.


You want to cut out part of his heart?

The lower part, the ventricles, which are not functioning properly.

So the answer is yes…

You want to cut out part of his heart.

To create space for a total artificial heart pump to act in place of what we removed.

[Monitor beeping]

Have you done this before?

‘Cause it sounds like you haven’t done it before.

We have used the device on older children.

But in those cases, we did not have to remove both ventricles.

So you could do this and it doesn’t… work?

Why would you even suggest…

‘Cause Arthur’s chances of survival are exactly the same as if we did absolutely nothing.

I know this sounds insane.

But we are running out of options, and Arthur is almost out of time.

You asked me to save your son, yes?

I am telling you, this is his best chance.

[Sighing] I need to call Hollie.

She’ll want to see him before…

Just in case.

Of course.


Your surgery went better than we could have hoped.


You may have a couple months’ rehab, but everything looks good.

Months of rehab, alone in an apartment during a pandemic. [Sighs]

Oh, so that’s it?

[Chuckles] It’s been, what, 12 hours, and you’re jumping ship?

Bailey, maybe we should just let them…

Shayne, my parents were together for over 60 years.

Look, after my mom passed, my dad and I were going through their old photos, I-looking for something that we could post with her obituary.

60 years… is a lot of hairstyles and fashion trends.

And finally, my dad told me that I should just pick, because when he looked at them, all he saw was the woman he fell in love with.

She was still the same caring, nurturing, kind-hearted person she was the day they met.

Look, people are who they are.

Karissa said some things while you were trapped in a car and she was terrified.

My guess is she’s still the same person she was when you met.

You might want to give her a chance to prove that before you just throw it all away.

Is there any way I can see her?

I’ll get you a tablet.


I just got off with Kelly Bernard, who runs Seattle Partners.

No one is losing their bed, nobody’s losing a room.

She’s gonna point me in the direction of hotels so I can sponsor patient rooms without getting in anybody’s way.

[Siren wails in distance]

Oh, come on.

Do you have a problem with all your attendings or just me?

‘Cause I’m trying to make this right.

I know you are.

It’s just, this whole situation pisses me off.

And, what, that’s my fault? No.

No. It’s the whole system.

It’s not designed to help the people that actually need it.

Especially when they look like us.

Right. That’s why I’m trying to help.

When I was a social worker, I saw a lot of temporary fixes that came from a good place.

But they never get to the root of the problems.

Hotel rooms are great for quarantine.

But then people have to go back to risky jobs and overcrowded homes.

I know you’re trying to help.

[Voice breaking] It’s just that all this is just… is… is too much.

And I’m just really over it, you know?

[Trash can lid thumps lightly]

Just over it.


[Thunder rumbles]

♪ In my younger days, I was a fighter ♪

[Sniffling] I want to teach you to swim.

♪ In my younger days, I felt the fire ♪

I want to take you to hockey games.

[Monitor beeping]

♪ Things didn’t go my way ♪

♪ I’d strike a match, turn my back ♪


But if we don’t get to do those things… I want you to know how much I love you.

How much your mom and I love you.

♪ In my younger days, I’d love ’em and leave ’em ♪

You’ve already given us a lifetime of joy.

I’m so sorry, Chris, but we really need to go.

♪ I’d trade my freedom for a steady hand now ♪


♪ But I wouldn’t trade the lessons I learned ♪


♪ No, I wouldn’t change a thing ♪


♪ About my younger days ♪

What would our wedding even look like?

Mm, rooftop, French Quarter, New Orleans, April or early May.

♪ Looking back, I’m glad to see ♪

For someone who doesn’t want to get married, you answered that really fast.

It’s a magical place.

Just don’t go in June.

It’s hot and smells bad by then.

Mmmm. Magic.


It’d be fun.

The kids would love it.

And, Link, I love you so much, sometimes I feel like I’m gonna have a panic attack.

So marriage seems so obvious.


But you’re not sure.

And you’re not sure.

♪ Taking life as it comes ain’t working out too bad ♪

I need you to not get high. I mean it.

I need you to do whatever you need to do to stay sober.

Because I’m not… I’m not Owen.

I’m not equipped for…


I’ll just end up sleeping my life away.

Okay. [Crunches]

I won’t get high, and you don’t propose to me in a semi-compulsory manner.

For how long?

[Inhales deeply] A day at a time.


About all I can manage.

Okay, deal.

What’s that face?

Well, that’s the one that says this house is still empty.

And, um you look incredible by this fire.

And I’m pretty sure these clothes still come off.


♪ No, I wouldn’t change a thing ♪

[Vehicle approaching]

Oh, my God.

[Sighs] Get up.

[Gearshift clicks]

Get up.

♪ About my younger days ♪


♪ Looking back, I’m glad to see ♪

Hey, sleepyhead.

♪ I didn’t get my way ♪

♪ In my younger days Mmph.

I’m sorry. [Coughs]

For what?

You had to put me on a vent.

You had to make that call.

I’d do it again if I had to.

But I hope I don’t.

[Both chuckle]

I’m glad I chose you.

♪ The person I became ♪


♪ In my younger days ♪

We need to talk about Wilson.


[Peter Groenwald’s “We Carry On” plays]


♪ We are raindrops in a river ♪

♪ One day, we’ll all be memories ♪

♪ To be lost is to be looking ♪


♪ The heart, it is a lighthouse ♪

♪ Our minds are rocks along the shore ♪

♪ I will not follow my mind anymore ♪

Maggie: That’s it.

It’s in.

All that’s left is to take him off bypass.

And pray that he maintains his blood pressure with this new pump.

♪ You’re a giant who walks among us ♪


♪ You have carried me this far ♪

Nothing’s happening.

Give him another second.

♪ Teach me to step over mountains ♪

Come on, Arthur. Come on, come on, come on.

♪ Love is deeper than the scars ♪

[Monitor beeping]

It’s working.

Ah! We did it!

[Laughs] We did it!



[Cheers and applause]


[Cheers and applause continue]

We did it.

[Cheers and applause continue]

♪ Carry on

♪ On, on, on Whoo-hoo! Whoo!

♪ No, you’re never gone

♪ Never gone


[Knock on door]

You paged?

Have a seat.

[Door closes]

Um, look, Dr. Avery, I’m really sorry about earlier.

I… I just have a huge problem keeping my opinions to myself, especially when it comes to underserved communities, so…

Well, sounds like that makes two of us.

I want to help people especially those who’ve been ignored and shut out of the system for far too long.

It sounds like you have some ideas from your last career.

I’d like to hear them. All of them.


You have a deep understanding.

I have deep pockets and a desire to help.

So, Dr. Ortiz, if you had the power to effect real change…


Where would you start?



Well, access to affordable healthy food is a huge problem in low-income neighborhoods.


The car was closing in.

I had no idea what I was saying.

I just… I, uh… I was so worried about you the whole way here and then once we got here.

Do you know what that was like for me?

I’m sure it was, um…

They wouldn’t even tell me if you were dead or alive.

Please, promise me you will never put me through that again.

I won’t. [Sighs]

Thank God, because that was hell.

I want an annulment.

I’m sorry. What’s happening? What?

You were right.

I-I didn’t say anything about an annulment.

Karissa: Shayne, what the hell?

You said people don’t change, and you were right.

She hasn’t changed.

Today wasn’t any different than any other day.

I just found her self-absorption charming on every other day, like I was drunk on her sense of humor.

‘Cause she’s funny, too.

And I was lonely.

And then I was laughing, and I wasn’t lonely, and so I thought I could overlook, basically, the rest of her personality.

Okay, then maybe we should do this later. The…

No, I want to do it now, and then I want to be done with it.

You’re selfish, Karissa.

And you were the same person today that you were the day we met, the same person who ate all the trail mix I’d packed for our hike without offering me so much as a peanut.

You’re dumping me over a peanut?

It’s an example. One of many.

You’re the center of your own universe, and I’d rather be alone than with someone who isn’t capable of considering anyone but herself.

Well, now I feel terrible.

I’m sure it won’t last long.


Thank you. Mnh.

Meredith: One way or the other, surgeons get closure with their patients.

You’ve got yourselves a feisty one here.

He sailed through every hour of it.

Never showed any signs of giving up.

My man.

You’re here. You’re still here.

I gotta call Hollie!

Of course.[Tablet beeping]

Honey, he’s okay!

He’s okay.[Both chuckle]

And he’s… bionic.

[Chuckles] Just for a little while, Hollie.

Soon as a donor heart comes up, we’ll remove the machine.

Until then, Arthur’s got hisvery own little battery pack.

[Crying] Hi, sweetheart.

Oh, my beautiful boy.

We’re so proud of you. Hi, hi.

You’re our strong little guy.

Mommy loves you. We love you so much.

Sometimes we fix you, sometimes we can’t.

Hey, thanks for driving me. I’m too tired to ride my bike.

Well, if I’m driving, you’re cooking.

Ugh, who knew sticking things up people’s noses would be so exhausting?

Wilson, you got a minute?

Sure, yeah. What’s… What’s up?

Oh, I was hoping you could tell me.


Quitting surgery.

I’m just gonna…

If you’re serious about changing specialties, I… I want to support you.

But I… I can’t do that if I’m in the dark.


But our intention is to find a long-term solution.

Link: Zola’s reading for 20 minutes.

And the others fell asleep before the animals saw Toad’s bathing suit. Mm.

And this guy’s down.

[Inhales sharply]

How long can your parents live in the driveway?


So my mom can keep “accidentally” referring to you as my wife?


♪ When the earth shakes ♪

What if we just… do a check-in?

Every few weeks.

No judgment.

To just make sure we’re still good with our decision.

♪ Good or bad, nothing lasts ♪

Are we super broken?

Or are we super evolved?

Oh, definitely evolved.

Mm. Yeah.

♪ Even when it feels like the day will never come ♪

Which isn’t to say emergency medicine isn’t important, especially when something’s gone neglected too long.

♪ Seems like the light is gone ♪

Teddy: Owen.

I just… I mean, I-I just put the kids down.

I-I didn’t know that you were…

Actually, I came to see you.

♪ I will see the sun ♪


You tried to tell me the truth about your relationship with Allison, and I… I was awful to you.

♪ But a heartbeat ♪

And I am sorry.

I-I… I should have told you years ago.

You told me when you could, and I should have been there for you.

Because since the day we met, Teddy, and every day since, you’ve been there for me.

You’ve listened to me. You’ve fought for me.

So that thing that you did on our…

[breathes deeply]

Wedding day, it was…

I-I’m… I’m sorry.

I know. I know you are.

We were friends first.

We’ve been friends for years.

And you’ve never been anything but there for me, so when you… So when you did this thing that was so out of character, I should have known that you were going through something bigger than me.

♪ Seems like the light is gone ♪

And that you just needed a friend.

Owen… I can be your friend.

I want to be your friend.

And I don’t know if I have more than that in me.

But I can be your friend, if you’ll let me, Teddy.

♪ I will see the sun ♪

And I’d like to hear about Allison, if you’ll tell me.

♪ Ooh, I know ♪

♪ Ooh, I know You want some tea? ♪

♪ I will see the sun ♪


♪ Even when it feels like Tea would be good. ♪

♪ The day will never come ♪

♪ When everything is broken ♪

♪ Seems like the light is gone ♪

But try as we might, some solutions can only be temporary…

How’d she do today?

Her energy’s low.

She’s still mostly sleeping.

She’s listening.

♪ I will see the sun ♪

Even when you think maybe she’s not, she’s…



Always has been, always will be.

I pray to God you’re both right.

We evaluate you.

We think in the moment.

We do our best.

♪ I will see the sun ♪

And we hope like hell we’ve done enough to carry you through.


♪ I will see the sun ♪



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