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Euphoria – S02E04 – You Who Cannot See, Think of Those Who Can | Transcript

At Maddy's birthday party, relationships are celebrated and questioned. Jules turns to Elliot for advice. Cal takes a trip down memory lane.
Euphoria - S02E04 - You Who Cannot See, Think of Those Who Can

Aired on January 30, 2022

Jules kisses Elliot while Rue reflects on her love for Jules. Cassie ends her relationship with Nate after he admits to rekindling his relationship with Maddy. The Howards host a birthday party for Maddy. At the party, Kat admits to Maddy that she doesn’t love Ethan, and Maddy advises her to follow her feelings. Cassie gets excessively drunk; when Nate unexpectedly arrives and discusses his ongoing involvement with Maddy, Cassie changes into a revealing swimsuit and eventually vomits in front of the guests. Rue, Jules, and Elliot entertain themselves by giving each other dares. After narrowly escaping apprehension for a petty theft, Rue begins drinking in front of Jules; the two have an argument that leads to Rue abandoning the group, returning home by herself, taking drugs, and hallucinating her father in a church. Cal gets drunk and drives recklessly to the bar where he kissed Derek. After getting thrown out, he returns home and scathingly criticizes his family for their perceivedly hypocritical hostility to his closetedness. He quickly chooses to leave them. Elliot confesses to Jules that Rue is not sober and that the two have been taking drugs together. Jules is devastated, but sleeps with Elliot anyway.

* * *

(sighing softly)

Jules: Does that feel okay?

Yeah, it feels amazing.

Rue: I don’t think you understand how much I love Jules.

(“I’ll Be Here In The Morning” by Townes Van Zandt playing)

♪ There’s no stronger wind than the one that blows ♪

♪ Down a lonesome railroad line ♪

♪ No prettier sight than looking back ♪

♪ On a town you left behind ♪

♪ ♪

♪ There is nothin’ that’s as real ♪

♪ As a love that’s in my mind ♪

♪ Close your eyes I’ll be here in the morning ♪

♪ Close your eyes I’ll be here for a while ♪

♪ Well there’s lots of things along the road ♪

♪ I’d surely like to see ♪

♪ I’d like to lean into the wind ♪

♪ And tell myself I’m free ♪

♪ But your softest whisper’s louder ♪

♪ Than the highway’s call to me ♪

♪ Close your eyes I’ll be here in the morning ♪

♪ Close your eyes I’ll be here for a while ♪

♪ All the mountains and the rivers ♪

♪ And the valleys can’t compare ♪

(bird tweeting)

♪ To your blue lit dancin’ eyes ♪

♪ And yellow shining hair ♪

♪ I could never hit the open road… ♪

How about we hit the hay?

(horse neighs)

♪ Close your eyes I’ll be here in the morning ♪

What are you… What are you…?

♪ Close your eyes I’ll be here for a while ♪

♪ Close your eyes I’ll be here in the morning ♪

Rue: This may be the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. It’s also the first time it’s happened to me.

Jules: Are you sure this feels okay?

Yeah, it’s amazing.

The only problem is, I took so many Narcos, I literally can’t feel a f*ckin’ thing.

Jules: Is there anything you want me to, like… do differently?

Nah, nah. It’s amazing.

Jules: Rue, you keep saying that.

I know, ’cause this is amazing.

Jules: I’ve been doing it for, like, 25 straight minutes.

Yeah, and it’s amazing.

Wait, did I already say it was amazing? I’m so f*ckin’ high. Don’t tell anyone, but she might as well be going down on my ankle.

Jules: Are you, like, close to cumming?

I think so.

Please, God… don’t ever let Jules find out what I’m about to do.

(moaning)

Oh, I’m cumming! Oh!

(high-pitched, staccato moaning)

Rue?

Yeah?

Did you just fake an orgasm?

What? No, no. Are you crazy? That was amazing.

I feel like Rue is too lazy a person to fake an orgasm.

Jules: I’m telling you, Elly, there’s no way she makes the sounds I heard when she actually orgasms.

Like what… sounds?

It was like… (chuckles) it was like… (exaggerated moaning) I’m cummiiing!

Okay, yeah, yeah.

Jules: It’s awful.

Yeah. No, it’s bad.

Maybe she’s just not attracted to me.

Or maybe you, you suck at eating pussy. That could be it.

Oh God, that’s embarrassing.

Elliot: (chuckles) No. It’s cool. You’re new to the game.

Yeah, but it makes me feel like a guy.

Elliot: Why?

‘Cause guys don’t know how to eat pussy.

Oh my god. You want me to show you, bro?

Bitch, I swear to god.

All right, so check it out. Pretend this is your pussy, right?

What are you… Oh.

(chuckles)

Ooh.

Elliot: Uh-huh, there’s that.

And also…

Wow.

(both laughing)

See? Just like that. Here, try me. Try mine.

You sure?

Yeah. No, it’s my hand, not my pussy. It’s okay.

Go ahead. Do your thing. Just like I taught you.

Yeah, but then point your tongue.

Ooh. (faking orgasm)

Oh!

(giggles)

See? And that’s how you make me cum. And you taste good.

(phone buzzes)

(clears throat)

Uh, Rue’s outside. I’m just gonna tuck my dick in my waistband, and, uh…

(breathing heavily)

(“Sometimes I Feel Like a Motherless Child” by Mahalia Jackson playing)

♪ ♪

♪ Summertime ♪

♪ And the livin’ is easy ♪

♪ Fish are jumpin’ ♪

You don’t know how much power you have.

♪ And the cotton is high… ♪

(crying): I’m not a good person. I don’t like what we’re doing.

(Cassie cries)

♪ Oh, your daddy rich ♪

♪ And your mummy good-lookin’ ♪

♪ So hush, little baby ♪

♪ Don’t you cry ♪

♪ One of these morning ♪

♪ You gonna rise up singing ♪

♪ You gonna fly your way home ♪

You seem very much at home here.

Would you like a tour?

♪ But till that morning ♪

♪ Nothin’ will harm you ♪

♪ With daddy and mammy ♪

♪ They’ll be standin’ by ♪

♪ Sometime, I feel ♪

♪ Like a motherless child ♪

Maddy: I feel like you ruined me forever.

Nate: Why does it sound romantic when you say it like that?

♪ Like a motherless child ♪

Maddy: I love you.

I love you, too.

♪ Sometimes I feel ♪

♪ Like a motherless child ♪

(laughing)

Maddy: Why did you love me?

Nate: I still love you.

But why?

‘Cause you’re smart and cruel… but not really.

Maddy: Not really smart?

Not really cruel.

It’s funny you say that because it’s something that I didn’t really realize until after we broke up.

♪ ♪

Did you know that I loved you? I’m not talking about obsession or fighting or f*cking. I’m talking about love. Did you feel loved by me?

(vocalizing)

I don’t know.

♪ Hm, hm, hmm… ♪

♪ So hush, little baby ♪

♪ Don’t you cry ♪

♪ Hm, hm, hmm ♪

Nate: But you knew I had feelings for Maddy.

But I didn’t know you were gonna get back together with her.

How many times do I have to tell you that we’re not back together?

Right, you just hung out and talked about love.

Oh, Jesus f*ckin’ Christ.

If I would’ve known you were gonna get back together, I wouldn’t have done this.

Nate: That’s a lie!

It’s not a lie.

You have this image of yourself as so f*ckin’ sweet and innocent… but it’s bullshit. If you were a f*ckin’ sweet person, you wouldn’t have f*cked your best friend’s boyfriend.

You two were broken up.

Nate: That is a comfort to nobody but you.

I can’t do this.

What, you wanna go tell Maddy?

Maybe I will.

Nate: You’re afraid that I’m still in love with Maddy, so you’re gonna do whatever the f*ck it takes to destroy that. This isn’t about being a f*ckin’ good person, Cassie, or being a f*ckin’ good friend. This is about you getting what you want. You can f*ckin’ leave, or you can get into bed. It’s up to you.

You know what you don’t realize, Nate? Is I don’t care what happens to me. I don’t care how angry Maddy gets. You two shouldn’t be together. You’re toxic.

How would you know?

Cassie: Because she’s my best friend, and I’m in a relationship with you. She’s not good for you, you’re not good for her, and I will do everything I can to prevent it.

Maddy, that’s literally f*cking insane. Madd… Cassie, I s…

See?! This is what I’m talking about!

I, I said Maddy because we’re talking about how f*cking crazy Maddy is, which you can’t seem to f*ckin’ comprehend.

No, what you don’t understand, Nate, is I am crazier!

Nate: That’s not somethin’ to be f*ckin’ proud of, Cassie!

No… but it is something you should be scared of.

What the f*ck? What the f*ck? You can’t f*cking blackmail me into a relationship with you.

Cassie: Blackmail means you don’t have choices. But in reality, you do have choices. You just have to own up to the consequences of them!

That is the literal f*cking definition of blackmail! If you don’t do this, I’m gonna do that…

Fine, it’s blackmail! I don’t care! It doesn’t change anything!

Nate: It’s f*cked up!

You know what’s f*cked up, Nate? You telling me that you love me, and then going and being in a relationship with my best friend!

(yells): What the f*ck?! What the f*ck is wrong with you?! What the f*ck is wrong with you?!

Okay. Bye.

(sighs) For f*ckin’… C… Cassie, stop. I love you.

(bangs wall)

Did you lose weight?

Do I look different?

Do I look different?

I was just wondering.

Then why would you ask?

I was just curious.

Why are you so judgmental?

Why are you so judgmental?

I wasn’t judging you.

You sit on your bed all day just waiting to criticize me.

That’s not true.

Did you lose weight? Are you depressed?

Why haven’t you cleaned your room?

Do you ever think about Dad?

What happened with McKay?

Where were you last night?

Just shut the f*ck up, Grace!

Shut the f*ck up, Lexi!

Fine, I’ll stop caring.

You’re making me feel like I’m going crazy.

Like I’m… actually f*cking crazy.

(blabbers, screams)

Okay, well, thank you. Next.

Suze: Any of you snitches to your parents about this, your days at the Howard House are finito burrito.

Maddy: Never that…

(all toasting)

To my beautiful girls.

(“Devil Inside” by INXS playing)

♪ It’s hard to believe we need a place called hell ♪

Cal: What, what?

♪ Place called hell ♪

Where’s Mom?

Asleep.

♪ The devil inside ♪

Not a care in the world.

♪ Every single one of us ♪

I would like to make a toast.

♪ The devil inside… ♪

To Nathaniel.

♪ The devil inside ♪

The winner of all winners… the king of all kings, the big swingin’ dick, Mr. Big Balls, huh?

You are a part of me I will never understand. But I take full responsibility. I think I’m gonna go for a drive. (laughing) F*ckin’ A. (laughing)

Wear a seatbelt.

Okay, Dad. (laughs)

(phone buzzes)

[Maddy: what time are you coming?]

(Cal continues laughing)

(“I Was Dancing in the Lesbian Bar” by Jonathan Richman playing)

(both singing along)

♪ I was dancing in a lesbian bar ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

I gotta go to the bathroom.

♪ ♪

I think she has a crush on you.

Should we all just f*ck?

♪ Well, I was dancing in the lesbian bar ♪

♪ In the industrial zone ♪

♪ I was dancing with my friends ♪

♪ And dancing alone ♪ -(door opens)

(singing along)

♪ Things were all right ♪

♪ But in this bar, things were Friday night ♪

I also… have to use the restroom.

♪ I was dancing in a lesbian bar, ah-oo, ah-oo ♪

♪ I was dancing in a lesbian bar, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Well, I was dancing in the lesbian bar ♪

♪ Way downtown ♪

♪ I was there to check the scene ♪

♪ And hang around ♪

♪ Well, the first bar ♪

♪ Things were stop and stare ♪

♪ But in this bar, things were laissez-faire ♪

♪ In the first bar, things were stop and stare ♪

♪ In this bar things were laissez faire ♪

♪ I was dancing in a lesbian bar, ah-oo, ah-oo ♪

♪ I was dancing in a lesbian bar, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ In the first bar, folks were drinking sips ♪

♪ But in this bar, they could shake their hips ♪

Jules: That was not 10 seconds.

Is that a dare?

Maybe.

(whispers): We should make her jealous.

Mm.

Start the clock.

Okay… One, two, oh, three, four, five, six, wow, seven, eight, nine, ten.

Yep, thank you. Wow, cool.

That was amazing.

O-kay, Rue.

Rue: Yeah. Oh, I’m sorry. Are you, are you jealous?

No, no. I don’t get jealous, um. Hey, Elliot.

Yeah.

Uh, truth or dare?

Dare.

I dare you to lick from here… to here.

Wow, your girlfriend is sexy.

♪ I was dancing in a lesbian bar, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Well in the first bar, things were controlled ♪ -Jules: Wow, ooh.

Ooh, jealous, Rue? Hm? Now, that… was f*cking amazing.

Elliot: You know, I think if you guys are gonna keep up with these lesbian power games… we should steal some liquor.

(“This Is How We Do It” by Montell Jordan playing)

♪ This is how we do it ♪

Oh, I f*ckin’ love this song.

♪ This is how we do it ♪

Whoo, bitches!

(“trademark usa” by Baby Keem playing)

♪ Yeah, duh, hol’ up, blood ♪

♪ Hol’ up, cuh, hol’ up, sis, huh ♪

♪ LLC the Glock, and I LLC my bitch, huh ♪

(“This Is How We Do It” plays)

(indistinct chatter)

♪ I’m kinda buzzed and it’s all because ♪

♪ This is how we do it ♪

Maddy: C’mon, let’s dance. What’s wrong? C’mon… c’mon.

♪ Let’s flip the track, bring the old school back ♪

♪ This is how we do it ♪

♪ This is how we do it ♪

Do you think Nate’s still coming over?

BB: Um, yeah, that’s what Maddy says.

♪ If you’re an OG mack or a wanna-be player ♪

♪ You see the hood’s been good to me ♪

Maddy: What’s wrong?

(sighs)

I, like… can’t f*cking stand Ethan.

I was wondering.

I don’t know. He’s, like, sweet, and, like, something good finally happens, and I’m, like, a million times more miserable.

Well, there’s a difference between what you think you should want, and what you actually want.

How do I know what I want?

You don’t.

Then, what’s the whole world always talkin’ about?

People are retarded.

(laughs)

No, seriously, people are f*cking retarded.

Maddy, I don’t think you can say that word.

This shit is hard and confusing. The last thing you need is to feel worse because you’re not feeling something you’re supposed to feel. You do what feels good to you.

(chuckles) I love you.

I love you, too. You know what would feel good?

What?

Dancing with me on my birthday.

Okay. (chuckles)

Come on.

(“trademark usa” plays)

♪ Bitch, don’t think shit sweet ♪

♪ I’m the same Baby Keem in 48 states ♪

All right, I’m gonna distract the clerk, you’re gonna steal the beer… and you do nothing. Cool?

Word.

Elliot: All right, break.

Jules: Cool.

Oh my god! Kramer! Dude…

Clerk: Comedian, okay, thank you.

Didn’t you get canceled for saying, like, the N-word a bunch of times?

Clerk: Uh, you know what, man?

Elliot: Now you work at a convenience store?

Clerk: What’s up, bro?

Elliot: Twitter is f*cked up. I’ve always said that.

And they’re always takin’ shit too far.

You know what I mean? What’re you gonna do?

(shouts): Hey!

Elliot: Hey.

Kramer, Kramer!

(beeping)

How much is all this anyway?

F*ckin’ motherf*cker! Motherf*ckers! Get out of my store! Don’t come back!

F*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck!

Go, Elliot, let’s go!

Go, go, go! Oh my…

Aah! Oh my god! Go!

Oh my god! Jesus Christ!

Jules: Rue!

Hi.

Nate: Is Maddy here?

♪ ♪

Yeah.

(“Heartbeat” by Red 7 playing)

(heavy breathing)

(grunts)

♪ ♪

♪ I can hear your heartbeat ♪

♪ Knockin’ on the window ♪

♪ I can feel the weight deep down below ♪

(tires screeching)

♪ I can hear whispers ♪

♪ Comin’ from the shadows ♪

Woo!

Come on. Whoa!

(tires screeching)

(sings along): ♪ I can hear your heartbeat ♪

Woo!

(car horn blares)

(laughing)

♪ Ohh ♪

Woo!

(“Vitamin C” by Can playing)

♪ Hey you ♪

♪ You’re losin’, you’re losin’ ♪

♪ You’re losin’, you’re losin’ your vitamin C ♪

♪ I can hear your tiptoe ♪

♪ I can hear the door close ♪

(horn honks)

♪ Anticipation in me grows ♪

Woo-hoo!

(bottle shatters)

Come on, baby!

(“Bailala” by Chika Di playing)

♪ Se están prendiendo las calles ♪

♪ Esta llegando todo el calor ♪

(“Vitamin C” plays)

♪ You’re losin’, you’re losin’ ♪

♪ You’re losin’, you’re losin’ your vitamin C ♪

♪ Hey you ♪

You know, you can’t drink on that shit. It’s f*ckin’ dangerous.

Rue: It’s fine.

Oh my god.

(“Bailala” plays)

♪ Muévete mas ♪

♪ Mueve todo tu cuerpo sin parar ♪

♪ Muévete mas ♪

♪ Bailala ahi, bailala ahi ♪

How are you feeling?

I feel fine. Do I not look fine?

Whoo-hoo!

(car horn blares)

Come on, motherf*cker! F*ck you, pal! Oh shit!

(car horn blares)

(laughing) Oh my god! Woo!

Elliot: Yo, could you put the f*ckin’ drink down?

Are you f*ckin’ drinking?

Mm, yeah. It’s just one drink.

I don’t care. Why are you drinking?

Rue: I’m not even into alcohol like that.

Then why are you drinking it?

Rue: You know, f… (sighs) Elliot, just take me the f*ck home, please.

Jules: Wait…

Rue…

Nah, I just… I wanna go home.

No, Rue, I’m, I’m just saying, like, don’t drink.

Rue: No, I wanna go home.

Why? Why?

Just drop me off. Drop me off, please.

Jules: Why?

Because I can’t f*ckin’ stand you.

What?

Rue: Yeah, I don’t wanna f*ckin’… I don’t wanna argue about this shit. I don’t wanna fight. I’m sick of f*ckin’ fighting. I just would rather be home.

Suze (laughs): You did good, big fella.

Hey, I’m gonna head out but, um, happy birthday.

Why? Don’t go.

Well, I just thought I’d give you guys a little bit of girl time.

That’s so sweet.

Nah, you should stay.

(dramatic classical music playing)

♪ ♪

Kat: Wow, that was certainly a choice.

(“Don’t Cha” by The Pussycat Dolls playing)

♪ Don’t cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me ♪

Lexi: What are you doing, Cassie?

Waiting for the hot tub to get hot.

♪ Fight the feeling, fight the feeling ♪

♪ Leave it alone ♪

(“New Sensation” by INXS playing)

♪ Dream, baby, dream ♪

♪ Of all that’s come and going ♪

(cuts engine)

(dance music playing)

(“Method of Modern Love” by Hall & Oates playing)

♪ M-E-T-H-O-D-O-F-L-O-V-E ♪

♪ Don’t you know that it’s a method of ♪

♪ Modern love ♪

♪ ♪

Whiskey.

Hey, can I have a cigarette? Thank you. Can I borrow your light? I’m Cal.

♪ Modern love ♪

♪ M-E-T-H-O-D-O-F-L-O-V-E ♪

♪ I know what you’re dreaming of ♪

Cal: I haven’t been here in 25 years.

Hi.

(man coughing)

♪ Modern love ♪

(Cal sniffs)

(sighs)

(“Drink Before the War” by Sinéad O’Connor playing)

♪ ♪

(indistinct chatter)

♪ Well, you tell us that we’re wrong ♪

♪ And you tell us not to sing our song ♪

♪ Nothin’ we can say will make you see ♪

(sings along): ♪ You got a heart of stone ♪

♪ You can never feel ♪

♪ You say, oh, I’m not afraid, it can’t happen to me ♪

♪ I’ve lived my life as a good man ♪

♪ Oh, no, you’re out of your mind ♪

♪ It won’t happen to me ♪

♪ ‘Cause I’ve carried my weight ♪

♪ And I’ve been a strong man ♪

♪ Listen to the man in the liquor store ♪

♪ Yellin’, anybody wanna drink before the war ♪

♪ So stop talking of war ♪

♪ ‘Cause you know we’ve heard it all before ♪

♪ Why don’t you go out there and do something useful ♪

♪ Ohh, listen to the man in the liquor store ♪

♪ He yellin’, anybody wanna drink before the war ♪

♪ And you live in a shell ♪

♪ You create your own hell ♪

♪ You live in the past and talk about war ♪

I thought I lost you.

♪ But it’s a life you can save ♪

♪ So stop gettin’ fast, it’s not gonna happen ♪

(vocalizing)

♪ ♪

She always like this?

No, but when she drinks, it’s just tragic.

Rue: Just, just drop me off. Can you just, just pull, just pull the f*ck over, and just let me out, please.

Right here, Rue?

Yep. Just f*ckin’ right up here.

(wind blowing, leaves rustling)

(quietly): Alright. Ah, f*ck!

Can I take a shower?

Yeah.

(water running)

Maddy: Get in the hot tub with us.

Nate: I don’t, uh,

I don’t, I don’t really feel like it.

It’s my birthday, come on.

Ooh, this feels so good.

I know.

(“Drink Before the War” continues)

♪ ♪

(ethereal music playing)

♪ ♪

(vocalizing)

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

Can I borrow a shirt?

(“Promiscuous” by Nelly Furtado playing)

(Cassie laughing)

Hi.

Hi.

Are you, are you okay?

Kat: Oh, oh.

Oh, oh.

It’s okay.

Cassie: Oh, shit.

Nate: Yeah, it’s okay.

Happy birthday.

Thank you.

BB: I’m so glad you guys are back together. Yeah!

We’re not back together.

You’re not?

No.

I mean, I was gonna say no, but why are you saying no?

Um, because we’re not.

I know, but why do you sound so definitive about it?

Nate: I wasn’t being definitive.

It sounded like it.

Nate: No, I mean, she just asked a question…

Maddy: That you didn’t have to answer.

Nate: Oh, okay, yeah.

Maddy: But you did.

Nate: I don’t understand what we’re arguing about.

You and your tone.

But we’re not back together.

♪ This is somethin’ that I wanna hold onto… ♪

Uh, yet.

Maddy: I mean, why don’t just say, “We’re working it out.”

Nate: You literally just said you were gonna say no.

Maddy: Right, but that’s me.

Nate: Meaning what?

Meaning that when I say it, it means something totally different than when you say it.

Okay. It might seem that way in your head, Maddy, but it’s the same word.

Yeah, but it’s also the speed with which you said no.

Nate: Aw, gimme a f*ckin’ break.

It was quick.

It wasn’t, no.

It was like a reflex.

Nate: It wasn’t like a reflex at all.

It was like a reflex.

It was like his natural instinct, right?

Nate: It wasn’t.

It was hasty.

You see?

You really think she’s gonna disagree with you?

If I disagreed with her, then I would.

Nate: Okay.

What, you don’t think I have a mind of my own?

No, I’m sure you do.

Ooh, he’s such a cunt!

What the f*ck is your problem?

Maddy: You see, I’m not crazy, right? Because he’s always tryin’ to gaslight me.

Nate: Look, I don’t wanna argue about this.

You see, this is why I don’t believe you when you make all these promises, and you’re like, “Oh, let’s get back together. “You’re the only person in the world I care about. You’re a goddess, and it’s my fault for not treating you like a goddess. I promise, Maddy. I’ll change. I’ll grow. I’ll be better. I don’t deserve you. But I love you. Please, when I go to college, move with me. Marry me. Have my babies.”

(girls screaming)

(gagging)

Cassie (crying): I’m so sorry!

I’m so sorry, Maddy!

(heaving)

I’m sorry, Maddy.

(crying, coughing)

I’m sorry, Maddy. I’m so sorry.

It’s fine.

It’s not fine. I ruined everything, Maddy. I’m sorry.

It’s fine.

Cassie: It’s not fine.

It’s fine.

You’re my best friend, and I’m sorry.

Suze: What’s going on?

Sweetie, it’s okay. Oh god. You threw up.

Just, uh, get outta the, get outta the tub.

I’m so sorry, Maddy. I didn’t… (cries) Maddy, you’re my best friend.

Just get out!

(cries)

Oh my god. What happened?!

BB: Cassie threw up on all of us.

Suze: Can somebody help me, please?!

I’m sorry, Maddy.

Use the bathroom!

Nate, get me a f*cking towel!

Cassie: Maddy, I’m sorry!

(“Love Like This” by Faith Evans playing)

(Cassie crying)

♪ I never knew there was a love like this before ♪

(crying continues)

♪ Never had someone to show me a love ♪

♪ Love like this before ♪

♪ I never knew a love… ♪

(“True” by Spandau Ballet playing)

♪ I know this much is… ♪

Are you crying?

♪ True ♪

You wanna wrestle? (laughs)

No. No, no, no. Hey.

I’m gonna getcha.

No, I’m good. Stop. Come on, man.

See?

And I’m gonna getcha. I’m gonna getcha. (laughs)

No, I’m good. I’m good.

What the f*ck?!

(Cal laughing)

Bartender: All right, man. That’s enough.

What, you wanna wrestle, too?

Come on, man.

Put your shirt back on.

I was state champion, man.

Bartender: Hey, Mr. Clean!

Come on!

Oh, Jesus, you three wanna wrestle?

You think you can take me?

Your dance, cowboy.

You think you can take me?

Out!

You think you can take me?

Let’s do this. Let’s do this, big boy.

(grunting) Oh shit.

(laughing)

Yes! Now, it’s a party!

(Cal laughing)

F*ckin’ out of here.

(laughing) What? I was just havin’ fun, man.

No, man. I warned you, like, 10 f*ckin’ times not to wrestle anybody. You didn’t f*ckin’ listen. You’re never stepping foot in here again.

Hey, hey… You can’t do that to me, man! Hey, hey! You can’t f*ckin’ kick me out, man! You can’t do this to me, man! Hey!

(knocks on window)

(muffled): I haven’t been here in, like, 20 years!

(“Life At The Outpost” by Skatt Brothers playing)

I have good memories here, man. You can’t tell me I can’t come back in!

Ah, f*ck. Okay, all right.

(music continues, muffled)

All right. Okay.

(neon sign buzzing)

(sniffs)

(shuddering breaths)

(engine starts)

(“New Sensation” plays)

F*ck off!

Man (on TV): Juliet, please, please! You’re next! We’re in danger! Please, listen to me! Something terrible!

This movie is so real.

Fezco: Word.

(TV continues)

(knocking on door)

Yo, who the f*ck is that?

(pounding on door)

(pounding continues)

Yo!

Custer: Yo.

What’s up, man?

Hey, man. I really gotta talk to you.

Um…

Mm. Hm.

Is everything good, bro?

Custer: Nah, man. Nelson’s baby mama showed up asking all types of stupid-ass questions.

Fuuuck.

(“Need You Tonight” by INXS playing)

♪ ♪

♪ I’ve got to let you know ♪

♪ You’re one of my kind ♪

Hey… are you okay?

Mm-mm. Hold on. Hey, hold on.

I don’t want to talk about it.

I… really have to tell you somethin’.

Okay… um… I lied to you. Rue’s not sober. She hasn’t been since I met her. She’s been doing everything from heroin to fentanyl to benzos. And I know that because I’ve been doing it with her. And I’m so sorry. I just didn’t wanna keep lyin’ to you.

♪ Lord, I’m tired ♪

♪ Hey Lord, you know I’m tired ♪

♪ Hey Lord, you know I’m tired of tears ♪

♪ Hey Lord, just cut me loose ♪

♪ Hey Lord, you know I’m fighting ♪

♪ Hey Lord, you know I’m fighting ♪

♪ I’m sure this world is done with me ♪

♪ Hey Lord, you know it’s true ♪

♪ Now the tide is rolling in ♪

♪ I ain’t tryin’ to win ♪

♪ Let it take me ♪

♪ Let it take me ♪

♪ I’ll be on my way ♪

♪ How long can I stay? ♪

♪ In a place that cannot contain me ♪

♪ Hey Lord, you know I’m tired ♪

♪ Hey, Lord, you know I’m tired ♪

(organ swells, choir vocalizing)

♪ Oh… ♪

(vocalizing continues)

I’m sorry I let you down.

Robert: Why?

Rue: ‘Cause I’m not a good person.

Robert: That’s not true.

(vocalizing)

Rue: Yeah, but you don’t really know me anymore.

Robert: Yes… I do. I’m always with you.

(Rue crying )

♪ Please don’t say you need me ♪

Rue: I miss you so much.

♪ Release me ♪

I just miss you so much, Dad.

♪ One day you will see me ♪

♪ Believe me ♪

♪ Believe me ♪

♪ Oh, please don’t say you need me ♪

♪ Believe me ♪

♪ Believe me ♪

♪ One day you will see me ♪

♪ Believe me ♪

♪ You will leave me… ♪

(laughing)

(unzips pants)

(grunts)

(laughing)

(urinating)

Ahhh.

Woo!

Marsha: What, what are you doing?

(Cal laughing)

Are you, are you peeing? Okay, Cal, wh-what is wrong with you?

I think I’m lonely.

(scoffs) What?

I think I’m lonely.

Marsha: Okay, look, could you please put your penis away?

No.

Marsha: Cal, I’m not gonna ask you again. Put your penis away.

I am who I am.

(door opens)

Oh, f*ck.

Mom, what’s goin’ on?

Okay. Cal, put your dick away.

Yo, Dad, what the f*ck are you doing?

I’m sorry.

(laughing) I was just… I was just telling your mother that I think I’m very lonely.

Okay, but, like, can you put your f*cking dick away?

(laughing)

Marsha: Okay, Cal, Cal, this is not funny.

Nate: What’s goin’ on? Dad’s standing in the foyer with his dick out.

Nate: What the f*ck are you doing?

Marsha: I don’t know.

Cal: You know what you three assholes are lookin’ at? The man with no name.

What, what the f*ck are you even saying?

Yo, what the f*ck is going on, guys?

Cal: I’m a rogue. I march to the beat of my own drum. You guys should’ve seen me tonight. I don’t know if you would’ve been proud, but… ya might’ve been impressed.

Cal, listen to me. I think you need to see a doctor. All right? You’re not, you’re not you.

No, Marsha. That’s where you’re wrong. I am 100% me.

Okay, you’re scaring me now.

You know why? ‘Cause I’m a man. I’m an animal. I’m a motherf*ckin’ Rottweiler.

(sighs)

You know how many men I’ve f*cked?

Aaron: What?!

Cal, stop it.

Aaron…

Cal, please. Please stop.

Do you know how many men I’ve f*cked?

Dad, why are you saying this?

Guess.

I, I don’t understand. Like, what the f*ck is going on?

I had sex with a man for the first time… when you… were in your mama’s belly.

Aaron: Dad, why the f*ck are you saying these things? Like, have you lost your f*cking mind? You’re talking about f*cking men in front of Mom when I was, what? Like, what the f*ck is wrong with you? Who the f*ck are you?

Cal: Here’s the funny thing…

(zips pants)

…if I said tonight that… I went to the strip club, and I… Hoo! Picked up a real grade-A piece of ass… huge tits, shaved pussy… and I f*cked the shit outta her in my truck… you wouldn’t be one-tenth as appalled as you are right now. You wouldn’t be standin’ here saying, “Dad, what are you talkin’ about?” You’d be like, “Dad, don’t say that in front of Mom.” F*ck you… F*ck you. You’re a bunch of f*ckin’ hypocrites. I’m a man. I’ll f*ck whoever I want, whenever I want. I’ll f*ck men, I’ll f*ck women, I’ll f*ck transsexuals, and I’ll have a mighty fine time doin’ it. I eat what I kill.

I’m goin’ to bed.

I’m a faggot… sexist, chaser, pig, f*ckin’ creep, and I love it. Living a double life? Not my biggest regret. You are. But let’s be honest, we all live double lives. Don’t give me that look, Marsha. You got that shoebox full of love letters that camp counselor used to write you. You saved them. Flirting on Facebook… I, I, I get it. It feels good to know that you were loved by somebody other than just me. I’m not standin’ here lookin’ at you like, “How could you?”

(closes door)

I mean, we all have secrets. Aaron? The porn on your f*cking computer made my jaw drop. Marsha, come back! You saw it. Your mother’s the one who showed me. Don’t talk to me about secrets. Watching eight people cum on one person’s face, gang-bangs, f*cking cum-funnels, f*ckin’ pissin’ in people’s asses. Jesus f*ckin’ Christ, man. I got problems, you got problems. You know, I was kind of uptight when I met your mother. She was a freak… and a f*ckin’ fox. Marsha… you were a f*ckin’ fox!

Nathaniel… Your whole f*ckin’ life’s a secret. A mystery. Who knows about you? I have lived with you. I have raised you. I am your father. I know nothing about you. That’s not true. I know that you’re angry. I’m so sorry I f*cked you up with my double life. (laughs) Okay, maybe, I took mine to the extreme, I’ll admit that, but… I have a problem. But the reason I have a problem is this family. That’s why. I’m not allowed to form an emotional connection. And I’m an emotional guy. You f*ckers backed me into a corner. But you know what? I think you’ve set me free. So… this is farewell. I left you with a little… memory of me here on the floor of the foyer. You… two dickwads can draw straws to see who cleans it up. I’ll see you assholes later.

(discordant music playing)

♪ ♪

(rain pattering)

♪ ♪

Rue: I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

♪ ♪

I’ve always been with you.

♪ ♪

From before you were born… until after you’re gone.

(ethereal music plays)

♪ ♪

(discordant music continues)

♪ ♪

♪ ♪

Jules: Since before we ever existed.

♪ When there’s no trust ♪

♪ Quite like us ♪

♪ In this whole world ♪

♪ In this world ♪

♪ When there’s no control ♪

♪ Over your state ♪

♪ Mm, mm… ♪

♪ Ah! ♪

♪ When you think it’s love ♪

♪ And you’re all caught up ♪

♪ Need to escape ♪

♪ Like yesterday ♪

♪ Am I gonna get in the way ♪

♪ Of sweet relief ♪

♪ Just take me anywhere ♪

♪ Pick me up, drop me off ♪

♪ Oooh… ♪

♪ To kingdom come, Euphoria ♪

♪ Oooh… ♪

♪ Pick me up, drop me off ♪

♪ Oooh… ♪

♪ To Valhalla, Euphoria ♪

♪ Oooh… ♪

♪ Pick me up, drop me off ♪

♪ Oooh… ♪

♪ To kingdom come, Euphoria ♪

♪ Oooh… ♪

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